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Shooting Flying – With Zeal


                The older I get the less I struggle with the anxiety that in my youth I knew as excitement.  Despite this unfortunate fact I was eagerly anticipating this morning’s hunt.  November and December had been dry making bird work spotty and good, classic shooting opportunities scarce.  January had started with a cold, wet front that left a couple inches of snow showing white around the grey-blue sage.  My computer had told me last night that the cold would break and the temperatures would push into the low 50’s today driven by a clear sky and the weak sun of winter.  Pleasant quail hunting weather.

                The dogs don’t suffer from my stunted emotional disabilities.  They are both excited about the hunt despite the fact that they’ve been hunted every week since the Mid-November opener.  Having sore pads and muscles is behind them now.  The easy fat of the summer has faded and they both have that long, lean look of a killer.  I’m not sure if they can see color very well but they damn sure know when I show up at the kennel wearing blaze orange. 

                Ellie, a shorthair/pointer cross given to me six years ago in lieu of a trip to the pound, is a quiet, reserved dog who has grown to have a confidence in her own abilities that amazes me every time I let her out of the box.  Like me she’s showing some grey hairs and her eyes speak of experience.  She’s not a whiner but her feet beat a rapid tempo on the kennel floor as soon as I enter.  Maybe she also knows the day holds great promise or maybe she just wants to have yet another chance to give voice to her genetics.  Probably both.

                Little Dottie, a better bred pointer than I deserve, is in her first year and has all the foolish hyperactivity of a puppy.  Her excitement is manifest in her vocalizations, with whines and light yips letting me know she couldn’t be happier to see me.  She’s thirty-five pounds of spring loaded hope and she’s ready to go do something right now.  I’m more than a bit jealous as she surges out of the kennel and into the yard where she’ll run a loop until I put her in the box.

                Other than the weather the fact that it would just be the dogs and I today increased my anticipation.  I’m blessed to have a number of friends who enjoy chasing quail with bird dogs and the early weekends of the season had seen many of them coming to visit.  I’m a social creature and enjoy very little more than spending a day walking the sagebrush and sand draws with a small group of quail hunters and their dogs but time has lead me to a place where a solitary hunt is almost religious.  When alone I rarely feel any need to direct my dogs as I just follow where they lead.  When alone I feel no need to rush the shooting or take marginal shots.  Without the need to track fellow hunters my mind is free to roam similar to the courses of the dogs.  The details of habitat, dog work and shooting that make this sport so appealing to me are easier to note when alone and the silence gives rise to introspection that is absent with a group.

                My old Jeep starts up immediately in the early dawn.  The dust of thirty plus years settles around the dog kennels as I slam the tailgate closed on the dog boxes.  The dogs seem to like travelling in the Jeep better than in the bed of my pickup.  Despite my failings I’m certain my dogs like me and I think they like the feeling that they are “with” me in the cab of the Jeep.  The old radio barely works so as I drive out of town it’s only the road noise covering whatever minimal noise the dogs are making in their boxes.  Some stray buckle or empty shell is rattling against the wheel well in the back and while I’m not particularly compulsive few things irritate me more than a repetitive rattle in a vehicle.   I’ll need to figure out the cause when I get where I’m going.  The complete absence of traffic reinforces my sense of solitude. 

I’d worried that the location I’d decided to hunt first would have other hunters but when I turn off the pavement onto the two-track the remaining snow is pristine.  I’m always surprised to find myself alone when hunting public land but it happens as often as not after the initial rush of the opener. 

                My first walk of the day is in a location of prime habitat just south of the river bottom.  A sandy creek intersected the river just east of where I park and sand plum thickets extend south of me sporadically for a half mile into the sandy hills overlooking the thick grass plain of the river’s ancient course.   A glance as I lower the tailgate of the Jeep gives me no reason to believe other hunters have visited the location in the recent past.  The sun is up and shining as strongly as it will all day and I feel it’s warmth on my shoulders as I start my collaring routine with the dogs.

                Some men, with better trained dogs than I, have the luxury of collaring their dogs, or even booting them, while the dogs stand patiently on the tailgate tolerant of handling.  Not so me.  Collaring my dogs requires focus, attention and the occasional harsh words.  Even Ellie is barely willing to stand still long enough to facilitate my attaching her tracking collar.  I finish her first and release her knowing she will empty herself and start hunting while I collar the pup.  Collaring Dot is comparable to convincing a teenage boy to shower frequently.  Tough but necessary.

                Dot leaves the tailgate, antenna upright, in a flash as I turn to locate Ellie.  I don’t realize it yet but Ellie’s point alarm has sounded while I wrestled the collar onto the pup.  A quick glance around doesn’t help me find Ellie so I look at my handheld and I see that she’s on point forty-five yards east of me back along the entrance two-track.  I make it probably fifteen yards in her direction when I realize I still haven’t loaded my gun.  After dropping in the shells the sound of the action closing is loud against the snow induced quiet.  A plum thicket covered aged barbed wire fence runs along the left side of the entry road.  Despite covering most of the distance indicated by the handheld I still can’t see Ellie but experience tells me she’s solidly on point and that there will definitely be birds. 

                Finally a splash of white turns from snow to dog and there she is across the fence strong and focused with tail high and head low.  The ripples of the muscles in her shoulders and back convey her intensity.  I see her head move slightly to acknowledge my presence.  As I move to within ten yards of her I kick some brush in the fenceline and she breaks point moving towards me into the heart of the thicket.  My admonishment to go easy is as much for me as for her.  I take a couple steps paralleling her along the fenceline and turn to face her as she re-establishes her point.  There’s a pause of approximately two heartbeats and then the covey of bobwhite quail flush from underfoot with a clatter of wings.

                Some two or three birds go hard left of me to the south but the bulk of the covey fly left to right across my face with the closest coming up not more than five feet away.  I pick out a bird and see the flash of white on his head as I pull the trigger.  Solidly hit he crumples into a thick stand of saltgrass twenty yards west of me.  Ellie is on him almost before he hits the ground.  The remainder of the covey scatters widely in the thick grass flat between me and the river.

                As I gather the bird from Ellie I check the handheld for Dot and see that she is, as pointers are prone to be, two hundred yards away but heading back to the action drawn by the sound of the shot.  Ellie stands beside me long enough for me to communicate my thanks with a touch of my hand to her head and some softly spoken words and then she’s off after the singles she and I watched settle into the grass.  Despite our age I’m pretty sure we are both excited.





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The older I get the more I sit.

I sit to fish, on shore and in my boat.

My duck blind bench supports my bottom,

and a folding camo chair follows me from pothole to pothole.


In the uplands while following my dogs down the trails I look for stumps, fallen logs and boulders.

Resting along the way adds time to the hunt and rests my weary legs.


Along the river without gun or rod, I like to perch my backside upon her banks. 

I watch the water pass by a few days out of Mosinee, Tomahawk or Rhinelander.


A pair of Ravens, followed by a single, flew over my duck blind the other day. They growled as they passed, and triggered a crow to join the raspy music. Ten minutes later they returned for a second verse.


I smiled when I realized the reason why. The older I get, the more I sit.


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         October 12


  It was not the classic clear,crisp fall day that comes to mind when you dream of autumn.The sky was swirled with various shades of grey and the ground was still wet from the storm the night before.It was that in between temperature where you sweat from exertion but your nose and hands are cold.

  The foliage is everything you ever read about.Colors that there are no names for hanging from every tree. Colors so intense that even in the low light there seems to be a glow,almost an aura that lights up the woods.It seems unusual that the act of decay could produce such a show.

  Dampness quiets the sound of your steps and makes it difficult to keep track of the dog.

  And the dog. You would not be here if not for the dog.He moves ahead of you with an eagerness and purpose that was bred into him.The two of you might train all year long but it is something deep in his DNA that moves him in the autumn. Most of the year he is your pet. Today he is your partner.

  His tempo quickens, an abrupt turn, you are ready.

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  The shot is so loud it seems a sacrilege.No other shots this day will be as loud as the first shot.

  Momentum carries the bird in a shallow arc and there is no sound when it hits the ground.Your canine partner is halfway to the retrieve before you even comprehend what just happened.Praise the dog,smooth the feathers of your quarry and remind yourself to remember this moment.

  Inevitably at some point you will return to your real world where a wife or a co-worker will ask if you had a nice time and did you catch anything.

  Best to just answer "Yes.It was Good".











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Then there's the young lady at the coffee shop with the most beautiful eyes.  And that's all that's visible, her eyes.  I wished that she would remove the mask and reveal the face, and I'm pretty sure she knew.  I'm not a dirty old man, just a curious one.  No big deal.  

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I have two dogs but this evening I only had one bone, a femur or some sort.  So I decided to saw it into two pieces.


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Theological aspects aside, many people like to imagine Heaven as a place where individual earthly pleasures exist.  Sometimes a few extra aspects are thrown in.   


In a conversation today with a friend and hunting and fishing buddy, there was talk briefly about an appointee MD to the new proposed Covid task force, who is catching some flack for saying that no one has a right to live past 75.  My friend said that he thinks Heaven will be better than any place he could find here on Earth, anyway.  

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I can only imagine.  

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Was the sight of two deer running
across the field near my stand.
To lure me from kennel chores
and the warmth of my office
to an empty deer stand.

It was the seventh day 
of the pandemic deer hunt.
Day six found me laid up 
after a painful twist of fate
and leg.
A tumble in the dark while
feeding the wood-stove on 
Thanksgiving eve cast the spell.
Remedy came from painkilling 
pills and ice packs.

Our three hunters took three deer
the first weekend, 
but I still had a buck tag to fill.
The flock of swans that rested 
several days on nearby Dubay 
flew over my stand today on their
southeast way to Chesapeake.

I pity those that have never cherished the warmth and comfort sunshine affords a face early on frigid mornings in a deer, duck or turkey blind.
I feel for those that have missed the soul cleansing effect received by hours spent alone in that manner.
And for the chosen, the love and companionship a wife and parcel of hunting dogs provides is immeasurable.

I thank my lucky stars I’ve had a lifetime of all of that.

OLD MAN’S MUSINGS from the deer stand 2020


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Yes or No


My wife won't answer a yes-or-no type question.  Well, she'll answer them, but not with a yes or no.  

Q: "Does this shirt smell bad?"

A: "Maybe a little".  


Q: Does this hat look ok?

A: Take it off inside, (the hotel lobby).  


I'm not really sure if other women are the same way.  But I've learned to interpret my wife's answers.  

Q: Are you hungry?

A: I might could use a bite of something.

Interpretation:. "Yes I'm hungry". 

Q: Do you want seafood?

A: Umm, I don't know.

Interpretation:. "No I don't want seafood". 

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A: It doesn't matter.

Interpretation:. "Yes I'd like a burger".  

Sometimes I think she does this on purpose just to keep my cognitive skills sharp.  She wants to keep me on my toes, and interested.  I take it as a sign that, yes, she loves me.  In fact, I tried it as an experiment.

Q: Do you love me?

A: Yes, I love you.  


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On 7/28/2005 at 11:48 AM, Brad Eden said:

This Topic will be different than most.

I propose a Topic where members can post stories they have written, essays, poems or maybe just personal thoughts on what their bird hunting life means to them. It can be about the upcoming fall, or last years hunts, or their dogs, their friends, their mentors or their kids as long as it is upland bird hunting related.


Photos/Illustrations can accompany the essays as long as there aren't too many Photo Essays.


What is different than similar Topics we have had is that ONLY the essays etc will be posted. No wise-acre remarks, critiques or comments pointing out who's they liked better or who is full of BS.


I will delete any and all posts that are not essays, poems, etc., etc. or fall outside these rather nebullous guidelines.


I'm doing this so folks can express or in essence "raise their hand in class" without fear of ridicule or criticism. Members can contact authors through PM or e-mail if they like.


I thought of this because of how tough it can be to be open on a bulletin board. Every word typed is left out there for dissection and opinion as opposed to published magazine articles and even books where the only feedback can be hand-picked Letters To The Editor or a Book Review.


Lets give it a shot. I'll start.

Just a reminder about what this Pinned Topic is all about. See my original Original Post made back in 2005 above (Edited to reflect 2020). That all still holds true. This Topic isn’t for promoting magazines or websites or blogs or YouTube channels etc. Copy/Pasting/Reposting any published articles is OK, even adding a link to a digital article or piece would work. Thanks.

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After a handful of great seasons with birds a plenty, we are now in the doodle doldrums.  Warmer, drier conditions limit when and where we go.  Yesterday, I went by my lonesome accompanied by the MuttPak, Willa and Abby.  Birds weren’t holding.  I was calling dogs in at the truck when they struck this one.


Tugs worms from the ground
Twitters without an Iphone
Flies through pick up sticks


She's not dead.  She just smells that way.
Abby rolling in whatever she can find that smells worse.


An old dog does good
Knows the short cuts doodles take
Head'em off at pass.



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